If I was going to be honest, I’d say that I don’t really like my “Now” this week. Now hasn’t been fun. It hasn’t been filled with “Let’s go party now,” or “Let’s go out now!”
No, our NOW has been filled with more emotion than I know what to do with. “Guys, its time to pack your bags now.” “Honey, can you load the trailer now?”
“Josh… I’m so sorry, Honey. It’s time to go now.”
I would love to go back to the Christmases of ‘years gone by’ when the urgency was only “Come, guys! Let’s make some shortbread now!” Or “Gotta wrap the presents now.” Or “It’s time to straighten up the house… company is coming now!”
What I wouldn’t give to go back to those days of scattered toys, constant noise, and sibling drama.
Yesterday, we sat in a puddle of tears with our son as he said goodbye to his dogs. Eyes bloodshot, hearts breaking. And the puppies know too, don’t they? I know that goodbyes come with the territory of being Third Culture Kids, but it’s awful! Our kids have had too many goodbyes in their short lifetime.
- This week was goodbyes to his friends (some he’s had since our first day here ten years ago), his church, his room, his house, his favourite teachers. You name it. ‘Now’ hurts.
- In two weeks time, he’ll also say goodbye to his dad, his brother, and little sister.
- In four weeks time, he’ll also say goodbye to me. Oh my heart. 💔
No, now is not fun… but now is what we’ve been given.
So what are we gonna do with NOW?
We’re going to stay focused on what we HAVE:
We’ve got each other—and we don’t just love each other, we also really like each other.
We’ve got food and a beautiful place to stay in Cape Town.
We’ve got a tiny little Christmas tree and a bit of money to buy some presents.
We’ve got kids who love the Lord and who are eager to reach their purpose and destiny!
We’ve got a hope and a future!
We’ve got a Father who always keeps His Word concerning us!
Now… we’re gonna go make some Christmas cookies and make the house smell like Christmas.
An excerpt from Erwin’s prayer for Josh last Sunday morning in Victory Church JBay:
Father, I wanna thank You for Your goodness. I wanna thank You, God, that we can trust You in every area of our lives, but especially in the areas where we do not have understanding and where we are afraid. I wanna thank You, Lord, that we can trust You with our children. I wanna thank You, Lord, that we can trust You with our futures. I wanna thank You, Lord, that we can trust You with our finances. I wanna thank You, Lord, that we can trust You with our dreams and our weaknesses.
Father, I thank You for my amazing son. Thank You for blessing me. Thank You for teaching me so much through him. And Father, I wanna thank You, first and foremost, for saving him and filling him with Your Holy Spirit, and causing him to have a Kingdom awareness that he would never have had had we not walked the paths that You’ve called us to walk in. Thank You for forcing Shauna and I to work past our fears and our smallness of thinking, and to bring us to this place.
Father, I wanna thank You for the prophetic word on Josh’s life in the area of music.
I wanna say “Yes and amen” to all that You have in store for him. I wanna say “Yes and amen” to the prophetic destiny on his life and the good things You have in store for him. I wanna say “Yes and amen” to the fact that You are gonna prosper him wherever he goes, wherever he sets his feet, because he has an understanding of Kingdom and he has an understanding of Your goodness, and Your faithfulness, and Your grace.
Father, I pray Your protection over him, and that You would expand him beyond what he could think or imagine in his time in Canada. I pray for good friends, a good job, for his schooling, and all these things to come to pass. And we say thank You, thank You, thank You.
And I speak Your blessing, the Father’s blessing over him, the blessing of this house over him—that all that You instilled in him, I pray God that it would come back to remembrance to him, regularly and often, especially when he feels disconnected or alone. I pray that You would visit him and grace him, and assist him and help him.
I pray as well for his grandparents, as they have this young person coming into their house. I speak grace over them, and on their budget as this man eats us out of house and home. Father, I pray your blessing on them—may the food expand like it did with the 12 bushels of bread and fish.
I speak prosperity on Joshua, and favor on Joshua, and success on Joshua, and everything that he puts his hands to and everywhere he goes.
In Jesus’ mighty name! Amen.
Today is Five Minute Friday, the day when inspiring writers post their five minutes of brilliance on a one word prompt. Today the word was NOW, but I can’t tell you how long I wrote cuz I forgot my timer and I’m typing on my iPad with two fingers. Grace grace!